trust. is a funny funny thing with me-- unlike the wide-eyed boyscout, i tend to take the more conservative stand (or cynical, according to him). i don't trust until you prove yourself that you can be trusted.
or at least i need to believe that i can trust you.

funny, i muse, why would i need to prove that i am trust worthy to others, if faced with someone just like me, who needs to have the proof of my trustworthiness. i guess i don't need people to prove themselves. it's purely an entirely internal dialogue that goes on in my head.

that sounded like namby pamby rambling-- but that's alright, i've got it sorted out in my head.

on a separate note, too many people live in the past.
i used to be a good student
i used to work 12 hours a day
i used to have an hour glass figure
i used to be skinny
i used to have 6 pecs
i used to go partying every night
i used to get suspended from school
i used to be the best cadet
i used to be hot
i used to
i used to

haiya.
live in the NOW pls.
pffft.