tonight i took the time to look into the night
and sit there and think about old wounds and fresh ones

of limbs intermingled under one blanket
of tears on the pillow
of lies and truth and the fine line between
of secret blogs and reading blogs in secret
of magic lines and angry words
of serendipity-s and giggles in the car
of dancing and laughing
of turning off the light and aircons or fans
of room one and baths
of mothers and fathers
of guppies and farms

and the sound of the night
the sound of the night
took my breath away.

and silently and as gently as they could fall
the cheeks grow damp
though gently they fell

because right now i feel loved
i feel loved and yet i feel quite quite lonely
silent, and trapped in the warps of my mind.

my lovely lovely brillant mind,
which somehow somehow lost its
excellence and shine--
distorted contorted bent into shape
by my realities.

today the family leaves for malaysia
road trip, just the 5 of us.
i wonder just how much fun
and how many fights we will have

but i know i need the break
we all do.