i'm upset, and i think you know why
because i made this decision because you were a friend
i changed the original plan because you asked me to,
because you said you didnt want to go it alone.

so i put myself here, for you, supposedly with you
and it hurts, that you seem to not bother about the consequences
to you, to me, to the plan we now had.

it hurts, because we are 2 fricking weeks away
supposedly to be starting the preps
and you tell me you want to change the plan
and this time, make ME go it alone.

you said you had few friends
so i tried to be there for you
take an hour to listen, really listen to you
and give you advice
and damn if it doesn't feel you're not stepping up
i don't even think it's asking you to go beyond
but just doing your half of the agreements.

so bull to what finance says
because right now, i don't even think you're
stepping up to the positions you put US in.
i don't care what finance says, and you can logically put it anyway you want
to justify it in your head, the fact is that your decision is based on Finance
doesn't make any emotional or logical sense to me

so it sounds childish, it sounds stupid
the stupid one is me, to not consider all this.

i spoke at length with the fairy god lover,
and everything becomes hazily clearer.
(ps FGL, thank you, thank you for aways being there
like my little rock, i can always count on-- in times like these
and in times of Ds, and in times of hurts)